Day Two

Late post today.  Started working for Julie, so I didn't get home til later than usual.  I went to bed earlier last night than I did the night before, but I am more tired today!  Doesn't make sense.

More lyrics... 'cause it's easier to express myself this way and what I'm thinking...

Francesca Battistelli is my FAVORITE!!  

It's Your Life

Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget

It's your life
What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who
your heart beats for
It's an open door
It's your life

To live the way that you believe
This is your opportunity
To let your life be that lights the way

Talk In The Light -DC Talk

I keep trying to find a lifeOn my own, apart from you

I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring my sickness under control

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?

I despise my own behavior
This only servers to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior....

It's my life... and I despise my own behavior....
After a long day... I gave in... and ate bad for dinner! :-/  I feel guilty for eating out... and it's a bad behavior that I want to change... and it's only day 2 and I haven't done very good at all.

Day 2: Your Partnership With God

So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God --all because of what our Lord Jesus Christ has done for us in making us friends of God. -Romans 5:11 NLT

FOCUS FOR TODAY:Your journey toward improved health can be,
And should be, a journey that you make with God.

If you sincerely wish to create a healthier you --God is anxious to be your silent partner in that endeavor, but it's up to you to ask for His help.

God does not intend that we abuse our bodies by giving into excessive appetites or to slothful behavior.  :-/ He has instructed us to protect our physical bodies to the greatest extent we can.

CHALLENGE: To resist those unhealthy choices by every means you can, including prayer.  

Take time each day to have a personal training session with God.  Don't be a woman who's satisfied with occasional visits to church on Sunday morning; build a relationship with Jesus that deepens day by day.

Okay, this is where I need MAJOR PRAYER... to get back involved in church.  I haven't been consistently attending church since before October 2009.  There was an incident that happened that month, (that I will not post on the internet), some of you may know what I am talking about, it is the reason I got Sassy.  That was by far the scariest night of my life.  I became a VERY bitter and angry person.  I have finally forgiven this person, but I am still stuck in the funk that occurred after this incident. (If that makes any sense at all!)  I stopped going to church, because I felt like no one cares about me.  And honestly, I still feel that way.  Alex, always made me feel special when she went to Friendly, but now that she has gotten involved with a different church, and I don't feel special anymore.  Yeah, I KNOW this sounds dumb!  I KNOW I'm not going to church for the people, but for God.  But it still feels good to feel as though you are wanted.  I have STRUGGLED with for over a year and a half.  I have tried to get back involved, but I have fallen into a very lazy routine.  And now that I have gained all this weight... NONE of my church clothes fit anymore and nothing looks good anymore. (Yes, this is just an EXCUSE)  But when I don't feel pretty, I don't want to get dressed up and go anywhere. :(  It really sucks!  I have "planned" to go to church on Sunday's... but then Saturday nights... I'm just like... I want that ONE day to sleep in, to relax, and I end up not going.  I have been convicted of this awful habit, but I'm not able to change it on my own. *Another prayer request I have... pray I get back involved with church and the growth of my relationship with my brothers & sisters in Christ & God himself!*

FOOD FOR THOUGHT START SLOWLY & USE COMMON SENSE

Don't starve yourself. ...this is definitely NOT my problem.  My problem is, I eat WAY too much & don't exercise nearly enough.  I consider myself to be a Binge Eater.  I eat when I'm not hungry, also related to my emotional eating problem & I continue to eat way after I am full.

Now the god of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will personally restore, establish, strengthen, and support you. -1 Peter 5:10 HCSB

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, not things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created things will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. -Romans 8:38-39 HCSB

THOUGHTS ABOUT GOD'S SUPPORT

Measure the size of the obstacles against the size of God. -Beth Moore

God uses our most stumbling, faltering faith-steps as the open door to His doing for us "more than we ask or think." -Catherine Marshall

Once we recognize our need for Jesus, then the building of our faith begins.  It is a daily, moment-by moment life of absolutely dependent upon Him for everything. -Catherine Marshall

God will never lead you where His strength cannot keep you. -Barbara Johnson

When you load your plate until food falls off the edge, do you feel obligated to eat every last bite?  I know I do, especially when eating out.  I'm not a fan of taking food to-go because I rarely eat the left overs, so I usually just finish it because I don't like "food going to waste".... but when I do eat ALL that food... I just feel miserable because I am STUFFED.  My goal next time I go out to eat... first off, choose a healthier option, but to eat slower (I usually eat fast, which in turn causes me to eat more)... which I lose all the "weigh" around. :)

Poor eating habits are easy to make and HARD to break, but break them is a must.  Maintaining a healthy lifestyle is a journey, not a destination, and that journey requires discipline.

If you desire to improve
your physical well-being and
your emotional outlook,
increasing your faith
can help you.-John Maxwell

GOD'S PROTECTION

In a world filled with dangers and temptations, God is the ultimate armor.
In a world filled with misleading messages, God's Word is the ultimate truth.
In a world filled with more frustrations than we can count, God's Son offers the ultimate peace.

WORKING IT OUT
It's Up to You

The benefits of exercise are both physical and emotional. BUT no one can exercise for you; it's up to YOU to exercise, or not.

Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.
-James 4:8 HCSB

STRENGTHENING YOUR FAITH
It's the BEST-Selling Book for ALL Time for a Reason

"The Reference Point for the Christian is the Bible.  All values, judgements, and attitudes must be gauged in relationship to this Reference Point." -Billy Graham

Make certain that you're an avid reader of God's best-seller, and make sure that you keep reading it as long as you live.

GETTING HONEST

Make notes about the times in your life when God has protected you and led you our of danger.  (Then prayerfully ask God to help you make the spiritual and physical journey to improved health.)

-The one thing that comes to my mind, is that night in October of 2009.  God was watching out of me and my friends/family.  I didn't sleep at all that night, every single noise woke me up, and living in an old house, everything makes a noise.  I, along with Monica and my grandma could be dead because of one persons very stupid, very selfish mistakes!  It took me a LONG time to forgive him because of what happened.  I was SO angry & hated him that night I said that I would never forgive him for being so stupid. (And thinking back on that night, my eyes fill with tears)  I became VERY co-dependent on others.  I did not want to sleep in my house alone. (My grandma was here, but what if something else happened, she wouldn't be able to defend herself), so I made Monica stay over many many nights.  I can honestly say that I am more afraid of the dark NOW then I ever have been before.  Almost every night, especially the nights I am creeped out by strange sounds, I ask God to place His hedge of protection around my house.  But because that horrible night, Sassy was brought into my life! <3  I never knew it was possible to LOVE a pet SO much!!  I would NOT trade her for the world!!  She makes me smile on the worst of days and I can't be mad at her when she does something wrong... she gives me those awful puppy dog eyes and my heart melts all over again!!  I NEVER EVER EVER want to experience a night like that again, but I am so grateful my baby girl is in my life!!

 ::God sent me an angel disguised in fur to remind me of love::
(A picture frame with that quote &picture is hanging on my wall in my room. 
I CANNOT help but smile when I look at it! 
How can someone NOT fall in love with that face!?) :D

 That is all for day two.  Hopefully tomorrow will go a lot smoother.  It's payday! :D ....yay.... except all my money is going towards gas and paying for my summer classes. *Always please pray that I will be able to finish pay for my summer classes by August, when all the money is due!* Summer classes cost over $2,000 and that does not include books.  So basically ALL my $ will be going towards that, and I'll probably still have to get my Gma to help me out.  My tab just continues to add up... I'm only in debt to my Gma and it's stressing me out!! :-/ 

Thanks for tuning in.  I know my blogs are spectacular and have a lot to offer, but I hope at least someone is reading it, sending up prayers & maybe it will help one person out.