It is time to clean up my life... to shed away the hurt and the pain and the lost hopes and dreams, to become the person that I want to be. Who do I want to be is the question that I must ask myself.
And here is the answer... I want to be....
a Christian who is madly in love with her Savior.
a college graduate.
a first time car owner & debt free.
healthy.
confident.
a Certified Personal Trainer.
happy, joyful.
A different person than who I have become when I lost who I really am.
A new day and a new year means new beginnings. I am ready to close the book of painful memories and continue with a new chapter in the book of wonderful times.
As I sit here looking at my Christmas tree and all the decorations all I can think of are the happiest times while growing up and decorating the Christmas tree with my family. I look at each ornament on the tree and I light up from all the memories that come rushing back.
I have realized this year that my grandma is 83 years old and I don't know how many more Christmases I will have left to spend with her. I want to make her proud of me... I want her to see my walk the stage at graduation... I want her to see my children some day, but I don't know that it will happen.
2012 is going to be about living each day to the fullest! Life on earth is short and the end is near. I want to put meaning behind my life and make a difference in the lives of the people around me.
I am tired of seconding guessing myself, not having confidence, being unhappy, and saying I'm going to start living my life differently... TOMORROW. I have learned that "tomorrow" NEVER comes.
Changing my life isn't going to be easy... that is why I need my friends and family to be there walking beside as I take this journey. I don't want to do it alone... I have tried that for way too long... and I have gotten NO WHERE. It's time to start.... right NOW.
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