Fear

I am afraid.
I'm afraid of failing,
Afraid of not being good enough,
Afraid of the unknown...

*I did not get the job at ETMC that I interviewed for.  But, I am okay with tha because deep down I didn't truly want it. 
*My other option for making money is becoming a Beachbody Coach, which I have talked about for a while.  Now that the situation has arried that this one of my last options, I am scared.  I am scared to take the leap of faith and start my own business because I'm only 22 and I don't know what I'm doing.  I hate the fact that how and what and if I sale anything is how I get paid --That scares me more than anything.
*The last time I took a leap of faith it landed me in a palce I quickly realized is not where I want to be and now I am on the verge of 100% losing my job, because they changed the class schedule and the two nights a week I can work they cut classes... so I'm pretty sure my hours will get cut again! :-/
*I'm not trying to say that I am looking at Beachbody as my last resort becaus I have wanted to do this for a while, but now that I'm really gonna do it, it kind of freaks me out! 

**But I signed up to be a Coach and I am waiting on my "getting started" packet to come in.  I am nervous 100%, but it's another leap of faith that I have to take and see where God takes me.  I also ordered P90X :-o  I have only heard good things about this program and now it's time to find out for myself! :D

*I have still put off order my certification matericals because I'm scared mostly, along with I don't know when I'll have time to study for it with 15 hours of school classes, starting my own business, getting my relationship with the Lord right, working out, working at XTC, and every day stuff I have to deal with.  Dear life, please slow down!


So many emotions going through my mind.  More money is going out, then coming in.  I am running out fast and freaking out.  Yes, I know money doesn't buy happiness... but money does have to pay the bills.  And only getting 6-8 hours/week at XTC hardly helps at all! :-/


The only way I will get through this is with a LOT of prayers and FROG! (Fully Relying On God!)