Afraid to disappoint myself,
again. Afraid to disappoint others.
I disappointed myself with my Kinesiology
degree and doing PTr. I realized that PTr was not what I wanted to do when I was
doing my internship. I don't think I
ever 100% believed in myself to do it which is a large part of anything you
choose to do.
So, then I decided I would go for
Psychology to help girls with eating disorders, as I have struggled with my
own. My name means, listener. I am a very good listener, but it's the
finding the right words to say back that I have problems with... so I'm
thinking a Psychologist might NOT be the career for me... I didn’t completely
realize this until one random day…
An incredible career option was brought
to my attention. It's an amazing opportunity and career... it combines 2 of my
passions... animals and rehab therapy. :) It is definitely something I
can see myself doing! But I am scared
that I am going to fail and disappoint myself, mostly.
I've been interest in the human/animal
mind and behavior for quite some time... I want to understand why we do what we
do... so I would still like to study at least some psychology... but as far as
going back to school and working towards my bachelors/masters... I don't think
that is going to happen.
The blessing in disguise all happened
that awful night in 2009 which led me to getting Sassy. We had a few dogs when I was growing up, but
Sassy was MY first dog that I was responsible for; I fell in love with her. If it wasn’t for that incident, Sassy coming
into my life, her getting sick and passing away :( …I probably would never have
applied for and gotten the job at the kennel and would never had would thought
this new path was possible.
I need confidence. Confidence in myself to know that I CAN do
this and that I will be amazing at this!
It just scares me because this is a real possibility… everything else I’ve
thought about doing just seemed so far off in the future.
It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and
seemingly secure, to embrace the new –But there is no real security in what is
no longer meaningful. There is more
security in the adventurous and exciting for in movement there is life and in
change there is power. –Alan Cohen
