One chapter of my life is winding down and about
to end. I am graduating college December
14th. This is a huge
accomplishment for me! I want to change
the trend in my family. I want all of my
younger cousins to choose to go to college and get a career doing something
they love and will enjoy doing!
Speaking of choosing a career doing something I
love… For my internship we had to write a final paper… here is part of what I
wrote…
“One evening I went to the gym in hopes of seeing some new and different clients. As I was waiting, I sat in the locker room and thought to myself, “What am I doing here?” I started writing down my thoughts in preparation of writing this paper and I asked my, “what is the most important thing you have learned from this internship?” My answer was, “I am living out someone else’s dream.”My interest in fitness began my senior year of high school when a friend and I started working out to look good for prom. During my second semester of college I signed up for a gym membership. Over the next year I lost 20 pounds and gained a world of confidence. The lady who encouraged me, motivated me and pushed me also inspired me to want to have a career in the fitness industry. I wanted to share the joy she had when teaching and training.I am not a very outgoing person, so I doubted myself a lot that I had what it took to be a personal trainer or a group fitness instructor. When I finally started telling people that personal training was what I wanted do, I did not get the response I was expecting. Everyone said, “That sounds like fun.” That was very disappointing to hear. I never once heard, “Oh, you will be great at that.”Each day of going to the gym the more I realized this career is not for me, at least not at this point in my life. I think I have finally figured to what I want to do with my life. Next year, I want to go back to school to study psychology. The human mind and behavior intrigues me; I want to understand why we do certain things. I want to work with girls who have eating disorders. I have been struggling with my own eating disorder for three years now. I still do not understand why I am thing way. [It’s not the most common eating disorder and most people think it’s just people having no self-control, but it’s real and it takes over your entire life.] All I know is after what could have been a fatal incident at my home something in my brain just flipped and I have not been the same since. I want to understand it and be able to help myself and other regain control over our lives and no let food or outward appearance have control any longer. The most important thing I have gotten out of this internship was to find my own passion and stop living out someone else’s dream.”
So, as I prepare to walk the
stage in 5 weeks, it may be the end of one chapter but it is the beginning of a
lifetime. I am excited to start studying
psychology. I have no idea how I am
going to pay for it, but I am trusting that God will provide for this next journey
of my life.
