Stop It!

I was watching What Not To Wear earlier this afternoon and I just felt like throwing all my clothes away and starting over!

This led me back to the quote I found while looking on Pintrest last night.

"You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one."

So, I went into my room and started pulling clothes out of my closet and dresser.  I am donating over 38 pieces of clothing. (Not trying to brag about that at all!)  I am donating these items for a couple of reasons. 

First, someone out there NEEDS them. I want to be able to bless someone else's life, which are the words I prayed as I began pulling them out. 

Second, I HAVE to LET GO OF THE PAST! All of the clothes I am getting rid of are the clothes that I wore when I was on Weight Watchers, when I was at my smallest.  I have been holding on to these clothes "hoping" and "wishing" someday to fit back into them. I am not that person anymore and holding on to those clothes are only holding me back and staying focused on where I was instead of where I am now.  NO, I do NOT like where I am now.  I do NOT like that I have gained so much weight and can't fit into those clothes anymore.  But, that's where I am.

It's time to stop focusing on the past and start looking towards the future!  It's hard.  REALLY HARD.  I want to start FRESH.  I want to recreate myself into who I really want to be/should be/need to be.

As I logged on to start writing this blog, I saw an update from another blog that I am following which went along perfectly.  Check it out. STOP IT!  It's much easier said than done.

I SERIOUSLY NEED PRAYERS TO CHANGE MY LIFE!!!! I have been stuck in this bottomless pit for far too long and I CANNOT get out by myself!!! I need a SUPPORT group!!! I need people there for when I am weak and lonely and tired. Please help me!!!

SO much more I want to say, but I will save that for a later date.

Finish it!

 "Stand up and finish what you started" -Bob Harper 

Today as I was helping Monica clean her room & found her bookmark from Weight Watchers.  It has been on my mind all day!

So, I got out my pocket guide that shows our weekly weigh ins.
I began Weight Watchers January 24, 2009 at 175lbs.
On December 5, 2009 I was at a 20.8lb weight loss.

I ruined it all when I gave up.  I have gained around 40lbs since then :'(


I am tired of giving up and taking the easy way out and giving into my emotions and cravings.

I. WANT. TO. FINISH. IT.

I can't afford to join Weight Watchers again, but I've also been trying to do it on my own the last couple of years and have only gone way down hill!! :-/

Prayers and a support system behind me and encouraging me would be fabulous!! I want to get to my goal weight. I want to be happy with my accomplishments again.  Please help me!

Almost done!

What's new with me you ask?!

Well, Saturday I took my certification exam.  I will find out my results in 4-6 weeks.  I am nervous, because I do not think that I did very well but that's okay because everything happens for a reason & I will get it the next time!

3 finals this week.  I have my PTr exam tomorrow morning at 7:50AM. BLAH!  Motivation to study for it = ZERO!

Ex. Phys. exam is Wednesday afternoon.  I've worked at least a little bit on the study guides.  Much more to go.

And speech is Friday morning, but I have not even begun to study for that exam.

I have done so well with the motivation factor this semester... until now! I just want to be done for the semester! I realized the other day that these are my last college classes that I will ever have sit in a classroom for! :-o   

Friday, May 11, 2012 means I have 6 credit hours until I receive my Bachelor of Science in Kinesiology :-o  How ridiculous does that sound?! 

When did I grow up so fast?!  Seems like yesterday I learned how to ride by bike without training wheels... thanks to my not-so-fabulous brothers that loosened my training wheels so as I came down the hill they fell off... scary day, but after that I never needed them again! :-p

So much on my mind... too much to share right now because I am totally blowing off studying for my final right now :-o Time to get back to it.